Former NFL defensive lineman Esera Tuaolo, who played in the league for nine years, said that his frustrations and difficulties with keeping his orientation a secret is what led to his early retirement. "It's scary," he wrote in ESPN The Magazine. "I'm not sure how people will react, especially the people I competed with and against on the football field. But it was scarier wearing a mask. I want to show people how much happier I am now that I've come out, that I'm free. A huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders.