Nicki Minaj Tearfully Reveals Her Traumatic Experience With Domestic Abuse

NEW YORK, NY - MAY 01:  Rapper Nicki Minaj is seen at the 'Rei Kawakubo/Comme des Garcons: Art Of The In-Between' Costume Institute Gala at Metropolitan Museum of Art on May 1, 2017 in New York City.  (Photo by Gilbert Carrasquillo/GC Images)

Nicki Minaj Tearfully Reveals Her Traumatic Experience With Domestic Abuse

"And then all of a sudden, that was my life..."

Published October 3, 2018

Following her 2016 Pinkprint documentary, Nicki Minaj is going behind the lens again to let fans back in on the life and times of a Queens-bred female rap megastar two years later. 

The upcoming documentary, which is also titled in the namesake of her Queen album, arrives right on time as Barbs are still sitting with her August-released fourth studio album. From snippets of the doc that Nicki posted to her IG, it appears viewers will catch the up-close-and-personal scoop behind the makings of the project. They’ll also catch a tear or two after hearing Nicki’s heartbreaking story about the role that domestic abuse played in her childhood, and how it tampered with her creation of Queen

  1. In the preview of ‘Queen the Documentary,’ Nicki recalls her first childhood experience witnessing abuse between her parents

    “I remember when my mother would let my father be violent with her,” the Young Money rapstress shared. “And she always brings up this story, as a little girl, I would stand in front of my mother and go like this [*stretches her arms out to portray her defense of her mother*].” She continued explaining that those memories impacted her own personality growing up, and in turn, affected other people’s perception of her as abrasive and “b**chy.” From that age, Nicki said, she vowed to never allow herself to experience the same abuse her mother did at the hands of her father—from no man. Sadly, she’d later come to realize, she subconsciously realized that she was allowing it to happen in her intimate relationships as an adult.

    “And then all of a sudden, that was my life,” she said through tears.

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  2. ‘Who was I gonna inspire when I had nothing in me to give?’ Nicki continued…

    Attempting to hold back more tears, the “Barbie Dreams” artist revealed that she let one unnamed person sink her into such a dark place that she ended up losing her sense of self. That loss devastatingly transformed the way she perceived herself professionally to the point that she even became scared to get back the mic prior to the recording of Queen. “I was scared to get in the studio, like, I didn’t believe in myself.”

    Currently, the documentary doesn’t have an official launch date. But Nicki assures that it’s coming soon via her Instagram caption, and as in the words of the Queen femcee herself, the Barbs are going to get into some “thangs” *Nicki voice*.

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Written by Diamond Alexis

(Photo: Gilbert Carrasquillo/GC Images)


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