"My tears are not just for my husband, but for my sons."
Last December, G-Dep walked unannounced into a Harlem police station and confessed to a 17-year-old murder. Born Trevell Coleman, the former Bad Boy rapper, who's struggled with drug addition for years, received a tough prison sentence of 25-years-to-life, despite his confession.
Now, G. Dep's wife, Crystal Sutton, is speaking out in an attempt to deal with the tragedy that has shattered two families. Sutton, who has two sons with the rapper, wrote yesterday about her reaction to the prison sentence in an open letter to VIBE.
"Stay positive. How? I go to church, I pray, I have faith in God but the doubt still comes into my mind," Sutton wrote. "How do I push it out of my mind with the possibility that my husband may spend a large amount of time behind bars... time away from his sons. My tears are not just for my husband but for my sons that may never get to know what it is like to have a father around."
Sutton also seemed critical of the harsh sentence. G. Dep's had asked the judge and prosecutor for leniency in light of his confession and his drug problems. "It’s hard to stay positive when the DA delivers a blow, the maximum sentence, no deal," she wrote. "No one can understand the pain I felt in my heart, the tears I shed when I heard. To some its just a story—words on paper, something to tweet about, mention on Facebook or joke about on a morning show. But now my sons (our sons) have become a statistic in a very public way, of things my husband rhymed about, for entertainment purpose (value), but it was his real life, everyday."
Sutton says that drugs may have played a role in both the fatal 1993 shooting and the confession. "At least once in our lives we have gotten drunk or high and made a poor decision," she wrote. "Trevell was on PCP, it was quoted that he was high when in walked into the precinct. Now knowing how powerful a hallucinator PCP (dust) is (only from taking my husband to different rehabs and reading about it) why is everyone so convinced of “his confession.”
Sutton also acknowledged the suffering of the victim's family. "By no means in writing this blog am I discounting that Mr. John Henkel’s life was unfairly and abruptly ended. I am not discounting that he has a family that grieved 20 years ago and now has to grieve again. I am aware that Mr. Henkel had or has, a mother, a brother, and friends that loved him. He had a life, a life that someone took. It's just a terrible situation for all."
To read, the whole letter, click here.