Stephen 'tWitch' Boss’ Wife Allison Holker Says She Talks To Him And Feels His Presence After Death

“He's still protecting me. I still feel him,” said the widow.

It's been over a year since Stephen "tWitch" Boss died, but widow Allison Holker Boss says their communication has not ceased.

While appearing on the latest episode of The Viall Files podcast, she said they have maintained an active line of communication since he lost his life to suicide in Dec. 2022, as reported by PEOPLE.

“I was talking to him really actively,” she explained. “I talked to him almost every single night, a really long time. It would be about anything and everything. It could be how was the day today? …Or I would be really upset and yelling at him sometimes.” 

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA - OCTOBER 12: (L-R) Allison Holker Boss and Stephen tWitch Boss attend the 2022 Industry Dance Awards at Avalon Hollywood & Bardot on October 12, 2022 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Momodu Mansaray/Getty Images)

Allison Holker Boss Talks About Difficult Task of Explaining tWitch’s Death to Their Kids

“There's times I've just screamed and there's times I've been like, 'Okay, I'm picking a school for the kids. What do you think of this school?’ And then just wait for an answer. Yeah. You know, and so it's all sorts of different kinds of things that we would talk about.”

Additionally, the "So You Think You Can Dance" contestant turned judge said they have had big conversations that have served as "healing."

“I was outside and I was looking at the stars and I said — whether it was necessary or not, I don't know if it was necessary or needed — but I forgave him,” she said. “And I said, ‘I hope you found that peace.’ Like, genuinely, I really hope he found that peace that he needed and that he felt like he needed. You know? And that's a really hard thing to do.”

She continued, “But, I just have so much that I want, I needed to allow myself to almost be free of that for him,” she continued. “And so we just had this long dialogue and I did. I was like, 'I forgive you and I hope you have that peace. And I've got it and I've got the kids, we've got each other. We're gonna be okay.’”

Allison –who shares three kids with Stephen, including Weslie Renae, 15, Maddox Laurel, 7, and Zaia, 3– says the family often feels his "presence."

“He's still protecting me. I still feel him. My kids talk about that as well,” she shared. “And his love that was so great for us is still with us. You know? And so for me, I just try to hold onto that and remember that I'm still gonna have dark days. I'm still gonna have a lot of lows. There's still so many things in this journey that I still haven't experienced, but it's all about the way you choose to move through it.” 

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