SZA has plenty to celebrate this year. Since dropping off her debut album CTRL after much delay, TDE's first lady earned not one but two platinum certifications for impressive deep cuts, a gold certification for her aforementioned LP and, most recently, a Soul Train Award.
Now the R&B soultress can add leading the Grammys with the most nominations for a female artist this year to her growing list of accolades.
Following an official announcement on Tuesday (Nov. 28), the "Love Galore" songstress racked up five nominations for "Best New Artist," "Best R&B Song," "Best Rap/Sung Collaboration," 'Best R&B Performance" and "Best Urban Contemporary Artist." In the wake of the celebratory news, SZA took to her Instagram to share an impassioned thank you letter to her fans and team.
In the lengthy post, the New Jersey native describes the crippling insecurity she experienced during the making of her critically-acclaimed project. At one point she openly admits to begging label head Punch to hire writers for the album out of fear that her music wouldn't resonate with listeners. “I remember feeling like damn, maybe I suck. Maybe I should try something else? Maybe I’m just wasting space," SZA wrote.
"Life’s weird…I didn’t have any friends growing up. Never gave my parents an opportunity to say, ‘Wow my kids killing it,’" she continued. "Didn’t graduate or do any fly s**t before my Nana died. Been fired from every job I ever had.”
SZA then went on to share the immense gratitude that she has for her fans. "I’m so in awe of Gods plan.. I just wanna live up to it," she added. "Thank you for listening to me.. thank you for understanding me.. thank u for bonding w my thoughts just the way they were."
Check out SZA's heartfelt letter to her fans below.
I️ remember pretending to be vegan cause that’s all I️ could afford lol (chips avocado n salad mix ) I️ remember sleeping on everyone’s couch cause I missed the train AGAIN (thank yall for having me lol ) . Sold my beloved 500$ grillz for 50 bucks at the gold shop for train fair( I️ was SICK 😩 lol ). I️ BEGGED Punch for writers on this project cus I️ thought no one would ever like me the way I️ was . He said “U don’t need em”. I️ remember crying cus I️ didn’t have any hits or a quantifiable “sound”.. I️ remember feeling like damn maybe I suck . maybe I️ should try something else ? Maybe I’m jus wasting space ..Life’s weird . I️ Didn’t have any friends growing up. never gave my parents an opportunity to say “wow my kids killing it” didn’t graduate or do any fly shit before my nana died . been fired from every job I️ ever had ..I remember sobbing on the phone w punch pleading for the album not to come out cause I️ couldn’t take the embarrassment . Just wanted another week . Another day ?..he ignored me n said I’d be fine...This entire thing puts my wildest dreams to shame. I️ dunno what to say cause I️ dunno how to accept its even happening to me lol ? I’ve never won anything in my life even until this week (THANK YOU SOULTRAIN AWARDS!!) it all just feels strange somehow BUT IM SO OVERWHELMINGLY GRATEFUL FOR THIS STRANGENESS!! . I’m so in awe of Gods plan.. I just wanna live up to it. Thank you for listening to me.. thank you for understanding me.. thank u for bonding w my thoughts just the way they were. INFINITE GRATITUDE to the Recording Academy for this INCREDIBLE honor. I️ can’t even believe I’ve been considered. God bless every person who worked on this album or gave it an ear (specially the producers of the century @somethingnebula @iam_c_lang @thankgod4cody 💜) . Thank you Top and Punch for believing in me no matter what (even when I’m on your LAST nerves😊) . Thank u RCA for giving me new wings🙏🏾 THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS LIFE I️ DONT UNDERSTAND . #Ctrl.. a concept . #mygrannynominatedfor5grammys #TDE
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