Megan Thee Stallion broke down on the witness stand this week in her federal defamation trial against blogger Milagro “Gramz” Cooper. 

The courtroom got a raw look at what the rapper said she’s endured since the 2020 shooting and the subsequent spread of a sexually explicit deepfake using her likeness. Under questioning, Megan tearfully told jurors she knows what it feels like to “not want to live anymore,” and described the anxiety and rumors that followed the attack. 

According to TMZ, Megan answered questions about the night she was shot and about the medical care that followed, including surgery to remove bullet fragments from her feet. She also testified that she entered a medical program for Dialectical Behavior Therapy, explaining how treatment helped her process trauma. The therapy regimen cost roughly $240,000.

The testimony is part of Megan’s defamation lawsuit alleging Milagro ran a coordinated campaign that amplified false narratives about her and helped spread a deepfake that caused emotional and reputational damage. During questioning, Megan said the onslaught of online rumors, including insinuations about her personal life, fueled intense anxiety and left her feeling isolated at times.

Earlier testimony from Megan’s former manager Travis Farris (T-Farris), detailed how the deepfake and related posts drove her to intensive treatment. Complex reports that Farris told the court she “came to him in tears, apologizing for him having to witness the video,” and that she’d entered the costly, four-week therapy program. Prosecutors and Megan’s team say that care was part of a broader recovery that included a PTSD diagnosis.

Farris also rejected claims that he and Megan had been romantically involved, describing their relationship as a “big brother/little sister” bond after becoming her manager shortly before she lost her mother, Holly Thomas. His testimony was meant to undercut allegations used by the defense to smear Megan’s credibility. 

Meanwhile, Megan’s lawsuit accuses Gramz of running a deliberate “campaign of harassment and cyberbullying” tied to Tory Lanez’s effort to discredit her after the shooting. Court filings and reports say the case centers on whether Gramz amplified false narratives and helped circulate the deepfake.

Lanez and his attorney, Crystal Morgan, were held in contempt of court last week and fined $20,000 after he refused to answer questions in a deposition for Megan’s defamation case against Gramz.

The testimonies will continue as experts and doctors are also expected to appear.