‘I Lost My Innocence’: Terrence Howard Says He Was Sexually Active From Age 4
Terrence Howard delivered a stark, deeply personal account of his childhood on the PBD Podcast, telling host Patrick Bet-David that he was sexually active from a very young age and that the pattern continued through his preteen years. According to Howard, the encounters involved older neighborhood children and continued throughout his childhood. “I was four. It was the older girls that were watching me… and we did that every day until I was like 13. Had more sex then than I've had in my adult life,” he said during the interview.
During his formative years, Howard detailed that he was often left unsupervised. His father did jail time, was released, and spent his hours working, while his mother attended school. “We’re just fooling around. We played hide and go get [it], pants up, pants down,” Howard shared. He said he believed the lack of adult supervision and the environment he grew up in allowed the behavior to continue for years.
Howard shared those early experiences and called them formative and damaging, saying they distorted how he understood intimacy and relationships into adulthood. He described the neighborhood dynamic as one where unsupervised play blurred into sexual activity, a pattern he now recognizes as abuse rather than innocent childhood behavior. The actor linked that history to his current parenting approach, insisting his children “are never alone. Never.” His past makes him hyper-vigilant about supervision and boundaries.
“I wish I had never done that. I would have been a completely different person, but it gave me an insightful view of interaction. I kept thinking that everybody was promiscuous like that. So, by the time I get 16, 17, I've done enough," Howard shared. "Now, the spiritual side of me is starting to show up, but I slipped back into it at 25 to 30 something."
“I look at my sons, nine and ten now, and I can't imagine them getting involved in that. I lost my innocence. It's effectively being molested," Howard said. "That lasted until we were like 13, but all the kids in the neighborhood were doing that,” he shared of his upbringing in Cleveland, Ohio.
Howard’s experience impacted the way he parents his own children. Howard is a father of five and has been married four times to three different women. He shares sons Qirin and Hero with Mira Pak, and the couple divorced in 2015, but later rekindled their relationship and became engaged again in December 2018. Reportedly, Howard also has three older children, Aubrey, Hunter, and Heaven, with his first wife, Lori McCommas.
He said, “When we have a family, a friend comes and visits, and they've got an infant, I'll secure the whole house and put pillows everywhere. I'm just overly protective because I wanted somebody... I'm trying to protect myself. My kids are never alone. They are never alone without at least two people watching them, just because I don’t want what happened to me to ever happen to them."
The interview — which has been clipped and shared across platforms — prompted rapid coverage and discussion in pop-culture outlets and on social media, where reactions ranged from sympathy to debate over the ethics of public disclosure. Howard’s remarks called attention to the broader conversation about childhood sexualization and community neglect.
Mental-health experts and survivor-advocates typically urge sensitivity and resources when public figures disclose abuse. Clinicians say early sexual trauma can produce long-term consequences for attachment, sexual behavior, and emotional regulation, and they emphasize the importance of trauma-informed care for survivors.