Lil Wayne might not be the Young Money label-founding, rap-mentoring, Nicki Minaj and Drake-discovering New Orleans hip-hop force that he’s recognized as today had a bullet that pierced his chest 23 years ago made it to his heart.
It’s a story that Weezy has shared time and time again: at the age 12, he’d somehow gotten his hands on his mother’s 9mm handgun, resulting in a nearly fatal shot to the chest. Thankfully, Wayne’s bad aim made the difference between life and death that day, as did an off-duty police officer who rushed him to the hospital. According to his Young Money president and sandbox days brotherly friend Mack Maine, Weezy will touch on the incident yet again in his dangerously anticipated Tha Carter V album. This time, he will reveal a different side to the story that he wasn’t so honest about before, which was his intentional, not accidental, self-inflicted gunshot.
According to the interview, Weezy lyricizes on the track that he was actually attempting to kill himself when he took his mother’s gun and blasted the bullet into his chest after she told him he wouldn’t be allowed to rap anymore. The original record was amended with the revelatory lyrics following the suicide deaths of fashion designer Kate Spade and celeb chef Anthony Bourdain, Billboard states.
Take his guest verse on Solange’s “Mad” track for example. “And when I attempted suicide, I didn’t die,” Weezy raps. “I remember how mad I was on that day/Man, you gotta let it go before it get up in the way/Let it go, let it go.” For his Free Weezy Album, Wayne also recollected the situation, but only loosely: “Ms. Cita, I remember goin’ in your gun drawer,” Wayne spits. “Puttin’ it to my chest and missin’ my heart by centimeters, oh Lord.”
“He just told me one day that he was ready to address it now,” Maine revealed. “Just being an adult, reaching a level of maturity and comfort where it’s like, ‘I want to talk about this because I know a lot of people out here might be going through that.’”
Kudos to Wayne for finally confronting his truth.
Read the full Lil Wayne on Life, Lawsuits & The Long Road To ‘Tha Carter V’ here.
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